PewDiePie has more subscribers than anyone else on Youtube. On Sunday, the YouTuber angrily used the n-word during a live stream that has since been watched by millions of viewers.

The video has since been deleted but, PewDiePie was streaming himself playing the computer game “PlayerUnknown’s Battlegrounds.” Upset with another player during a moment in the game play, PewDiePie said, “What a F— N—.”

“Jeez, oh my God, what the f—,” he said. “Sorry, but what the f—. What a f—ing a——. I don’t mean that in a bad way.”

You can see the video clip below (NFSW).

PewDiePie has used racist language and imagery in the past. And when he’s condemned by social media, news outlets, and commentators, his defenders often rally behind the YouTuber arguing that he is being taken out of context. But, it does come with consequences. For example, following a Wall Street Journal report about the YouTuber’s Nazi jokes, he reportedly lost his premium show on the platform’s subscription service and his deal with Disney. He argued that the jokes mocked Nazi culture and did not promote it.

This time around, he had used the n-word, at another person. Then on Tuesday morning, PewDiePie posted a video in response saying that there were “no excuses” for what he had said.

“You probably won’t believe me when I say this,” his response begins, “but whenever I go online, and I hear other players use the same kind of language that I did, I always find it extremely immature and stupid and I hate how I now personally fed into that part of gaming as well.”

PewDiePie argues he had used the word “in the heat of the moment,” and chose the “worst word I could possibly think of.”

“I’m disappointed in myself,” he added. “It seems like I’ve learned nothing from all these past controversies.”

Following his livestream, one game developer started reporting PewDiePie’s videos that contained footage from his games for copyright violations, to get them removed from PewDiePie’s channel.