Jennifer Lawrence reveals her first reactions to seeing her new movie Mother! And it is not what you would expect.

Earlier this week, the movie’s director Darren Aronofsky discussed his approach to the film at the New York screening of his new psychological theater. “You’re laughing and smiling now, but you’re all going to really hate me in about an hour and a half. So the first thing I want to do is apologize,” he said.

The movie, which stars Jennifer Lawrence and Javier Bardem, has received significant attention and mixed reviews since the film debuted last week at the Venice Film Festival. Some praised the movie, while others say it does not meet their expectations. However, another group of critics argues that the film may just be pushing audiences too far.

One person in the latter category is Jennifer Lawrence. “I was really shaken. My first reaction [to seeing the film] was that we took it too far,” said Lawrence. “But then after the images died down a little bit, [the movie’s] exactly what we’re supposed to be doing and what we need to be doing. We have a message and if we watered it down to make people comfortable then what’s the point? Why even make it?”

The movie focuses on Jennifer Lawrence, a homemaker, and Bardem, a former poet, whose lives turned upside down when two strangers arrive at their home.

After working on the movie, Lawrence said that she is focusing on challenging roles and working with directors that will push her further.

Aronofsky told Variety that his approach to this film is different than previous projects. “The same pattern and rhythm isn’t interesting to me, so I wanted to take one emotion and make it into a movie. A lot of people call it different things: it’s rage, insatiability and it’s for you guys to decide what it is.”